Under 100kg...hello double figures!

Finally after weeks of being so close, 99.4kg at weigh in this morning.
That is the lightest I have been since December 2002...10 years!!

It's all downhill to goal weight from here...12wbt starts on Monday.

Size 12 here I come.

Karen

Stolen...

I am in total shock right now and feel physically ill from it.

My 17 year old son who I allowed to move back into my home in early February has totally betrayed my trust and rifled through my things, stolen my ipad and I can only assume pawned it to get money to buy drugs. I can't beliee he has done this again after I was starting to build some sort of trust in him.

He has his phone turned off and I have no idea where he is or what he is doing. I do not know whether he will attempt to come home tonight.

We went through this a few years ago when I had to report him to the police as he stole about a quarter of my dvd collection. I got hardly any of them back. He also broke into my home about a year ago and stole a laptop computer. The police would do nothing een though the fingerprints they lifted were his because they said they could have been there from when he had visited or lived here previously.

I don't know why he does this...I don't get it but it freakin hurts that he does. Why does he steal from ME? I have fed, clothed and looked after him for his whole life. I have been his biggest and at times his only supporter...I love him, he is my youngest son. Obviously he does not feel anything for me.

I will not be letting him back into my home. I have no idea where he will go but I can't live like this any longer.

I have not turned to food. I have had dinner and feel full. I will not let him make me een think about turning to food.

The next few days are going to be tough I think, I need to start visiting pawnbrokers tomorrow trying to find my ipad and I am going to have to make a police report. So much of my life in that ipad including alot of my weightloss info.

The toughest part is going to be if he shows up here and I have to tell him to leave...but now it's time to take care of me.

Karen

Goals...

One of the tasks I have been asked to do so far in 12wbt is set some goals. Sounds easy...but it wasn't and it still isn't.

This request was a couple of weeks ago and I am still struggling with setting these.

Below is the post I made in the 12wbt forums when the task first came out...

"Wow...I can't believe I am finding this so hard to do.
I have just realised that since I first stepped on the scales on July 18th last year and began my weight loss journey I haven't really had any goals except to lose weight. The funny thing is that I don't even really have a goal weight, just a number that I plucked out of the air that sounded like it would be a good approximate area to be in.
Even now as I sit here 42.3kg lighter than when I started I'm finding it difficult to say what I want to do exept lose weight...
I am finding this weird that setting goals is something I can do in my job without a thought...but for me personally nothing. Maybe it's a fear of failure...I don't know.
This task has been an eye opener for me and is going to take some real thinking about myself to complete."

Nothing has changed since then except for another 1.7kg loss and I know that the reason is not a fear of failure because I know that I am fully commited to doing this and have been for the last 10 months.

I keep going back to this task and was thinking I need to put something in there and break it down...but now I am not happy with what I put because I know they were not thought out and really true...they were just fillers.

I am going to try and spend the weekend getting this task sorted. I'm dithering and really should have this sorted by now.

Karen

12wbt

Ok...blogging...lets give this another go!

I have been reading the posts below back from August last year and things have changed alot since then. Not only the weightloss, I now weigh 100.3 kilos but the way I am losing weight.

Weight Watchers was good back then, it served its purpose, but around Christmas last year the weightloss slowed ALOT. I was in BigW just after Christmas and stumbled cross Michelle Bridges book Crunchtime. I snapped it up and read it closely over the next few days.

It made sense!

I started cooking her meals that weekend and immediately started dropping weight again. About that time I also learnt of the 12wbt program. I didn't sign up for round 1 as I could not find enough reviews to satisfy me that the $199 would be well spent. I did however sign up for a notification email when round 2 was due to begin.

When that email landed in my inbox I immediately hit her website and signed up. I didn't need reviews because by that stage I had been following her crunchtime book and recipes for 5 months, I knew it worked.

I am excited about the next twelve weeks. I have been working through the challenges and the preseason tasks as they arise and have had some light bulb moments already. 

I am really excited for this program to start.

Bring it on!

Karen