Stolen...

I am in total shock right now and feel physically ill from it.

My 17 year old son who I allowed to move back into my home in early February has totally betrayed my trust and rifled through my things, stolen my ipad and I can only assume pawned it to get money to buy drugs. I can't beliee he has done this again after I was starting to build some sort of trust in him.

He has his phone turned off and I have no idea where he is or what he is doing. I do not know whether he will attempt to come home tonight.

We went through this a few years ago when I had to report him to the police as he stole about a quarter of my dvd collection. I got hardly any of them back. He also broke into my home about a year ago and stole a laptop computer. The police would do nothing een though the fingerprints they lifted were his because they said they could have been there from when he had visited or lived here previously.

I don't know why he does this...I don't get it but it freakin hurts that he does. Why does he steal from ME? I have fed, clothed and looked after him for his whole life. I have been his biggest and at times his only supporter...I love him, he is my youngest son. Obviously he does not feel anything for me.

I will not be letting him back into my home. I have no idea where he will go but I can't live like this any longer.

I have not turned to food. I have had dinner and feel full. I will not let him make me een think about turning to food.

The next few days are going to be tough I think, I need to start visiting pawnbrokers tomorrow trying to find my ipad and I am going to have to make a police report. So much of my life in that ipad including alot of my weightloss info.

The toughest part is going to be if he shows up here and I have to tell him to leave...but now it's time to take care of me.

Karen