Finally after weeks of being so close, 99.4kg at weigh in this morning.
That is the lightest I have been since December 2002...10 years!!
It's all downhill to goal weight from here...12wbt starts on Monday.
Size 12 here I come.
Karen
Wednesday, 30 May 2012
Tuesday, 29 May 2012
Stolen...
I am in total shock right now and feel physically ill from it.
My 17 year old son who I allowed to move back into my home in early February has totally betrayed my trust and rifled through my things, stolen my ipad and I can only assume pawned it to get money to buy drugs. I can't beliee he has done this again after I was starting to build some sort of trust in him.
He has his phone turned off and I have no idea where he is or what he is doing. I do not know whether he will attempt to come home tonight.
We went through this a few years ago when I had to report him to the police as he stole about a quarter of my dvd collection. I got hardly any of them back. He also broke into my home about a year ago and stole a laptop computer. The police would do nothing een though the fingerprints they lifted were his because they said they could have been there from when he had visited or lived here previously.
I don't know why he does this...I don't get it but it freakin hurts that he does. Why does he steal from ME? I have fed, clothed and looked after him for his whole life. I have been his biggest and at times his only supporter...I love him, he is my youngest son. Obviously he does not feel anything for me.
I will not be letting him back into my home. I have no idea where he will go but I can't live like this any longer.
I have not turned to food. I have had dinner and feel full. I will not let him make me een think about turning to food.
The next few days are going to be tough I think, I need to start visiting pawnbrokers tomorrow trying to find my ipad and I am going to have to make a police report. So much of my life in that ipad including alot of my weightloss info.
The toughest part is going to be if he shows up here and I have to tell him to leave...but now it's time to take care of me.
Karen
My 17 year old son who I allowed to move back into my home in early February has totally betrayed my trust and rifled through my things, stolen my ipad and I can only assume pawned it to get money to buy drugs. I can't beliee he has done this again after I was starting to build some sort of trust in him.
He has his phone turned off and I have no idea where he is or what he is doing. I do not know whether he will attempt to come home tonight.
We went through this a few years ago when I had to report him to the police as he stole about a quarter of my dvd collection. I got hardly any of them back. He also broke into my home about a year ago and stole a laptop computer. The police would do nothing een though the fingerprints they lifted were his because they said they could have been there from when he had visited or lived here previously.
I don't know why he does this...I don't get it but it freakin hurts that he does. Why does he steal from ME? I have fed, clothed and looked after him for his whole life. I have been his biggest and at times his only supporter...I love him, he is my youngest son. Obviously he does not feel anything for me.
I will not be letting him back into my home. I have no idea where he will go but I can't live like this any longer.
I have not turned to food. I have had dinner and feel full. I will not let him make me een think about turning to food.
The next few days are going to be tough I think, I need to start visiting pawnbrokers tomorrow trying to find my ipad and I am going to have to make a police report. So much of my life in that ipad including alot of my weightloss info.
The toughest part is going to be if he shows up here and I have to tell him to leave...but now it's time to take care of me.
Karen
Thursday, 24 May 2012
Goals...
One of the tasks I have been asked to do so far in 12wbt is set some goals. Sounds easy...but it wasn't and it still isn't.
This request was a couple of weeks ago and I am still struggling with setting these.
Below is the post I made in the 12wbt forums when the task first came out...
"Wow...I can't believe I am finding this so hard to do.
I have just realised that since I first stepped on the scales on July 18th last year and began my weight loss journey I haven't really had any goals except to lose weight. The funny thing is that I don't even really have a goal weight, just a number that I plucked out of the air that sounded like it would be a good approximate area to be in.
Even now as I sit here 42.3kg lighter than when I started I'm finding it difficult to say what I want to do exept lose weight...
I am finding this weird that setting goals is something I can do in my job without a thought...but for me personally nothing. Maybe it's a fear of failure...I don't know.
This task has been an eye opener for me and is going to take some real thinking about myself to complete."
Nothing has changed since then except for another 1.7kg loss and I know that the reason is not a fear of failure because I know that I am fully commited to doing this and have been for the last 10 months.
I keep going back to this task and was thinking I need to put something in there and break it down...but now I am not happy with what I put because I know they were not thought out and really true...they were just fillers.
I am going to try and spend the weekend getting this task sorted. I'm dithering and really should have this sorted by now.
Karen
This request was a couple of weeks ago and I am still struggling with setting these.
Below is the post I made in the 12wbt forums when the task first came out...
"Wow...I can't believe I am finding this so hard to do.
I have just realised that since I first stepped on the scales on July 18th last year and began my weight loss journey I haven't really had any goals except to lose weight. The funny thing is that I don't even really have a goal weight, just a number that I plucked out of the air that sounded like it would be a good approximate area to be in.
Even now as I sit here 42.3kg lighter than when I started I'm finding it difficult to say what I want to do exept lose weight...
I am finding this weird that setting goals is something I can do in my job without a thought...but for me personally nothing. Maybe it's a fear of failure...I don't know.
This task has been an eye opener for me and is going to take some real thinking about myself to complete."
Nothing has changed since then except for another 1.7kg loss and I know that the reason is not a fear of failure because I know that I am fully commited to doing this and have been for the last 10 months.
I keep going back to this task and was thinking I need to put something in there and break it down...but now I am not happy with what I put because I know they were not thought out and really true...they were just fillers.
I am going to try and spend the weekend getting this task sorted. I'm dithering and really should have this sorted by now.
Karen
Monday, 21 May 2012
12wbt
Ok...blogging...lets give this another go!
I have been reading the posts below back from August last year and things have changed alot since then. Not only the weightloss, I now weigh 100.3 kilos but the way I am losing weight.
Weight Watchers was good back then, it served its purpose, but around Christmas last year the weightloss slowed ALOT. I was in BigW just after Christmas and stumbled cross Michelle Bridges book Crunchtime. I snapped it up and read it closely over the next few days.
It made sense!
I started cooking her meals that weekend and immediately started dropping weight again. About that time I also learnt of the 12wbt program. I didn't sign up for round 1 as I could not find enough reviews to satisfy me that the $199 would be well spent. I did however sign up for a notification email when round 2 was due to begin.
When that email landed in my inbox I immediately hit her website and signed up. I didn't need reviews because by that stage I had been following her crunchtime book and recipes for 5 months, I knew it worked.
I am really excited for this program to start.
Bring it on!
Karen
Friday, 19 August 2011
Daily Weigher.
I'm a daily weigher...I can't help it. I find it keeps me on track. I also have a spreadsheet that I record my weights in daily. I am actually amazed at the patterns that show up when you record your weights this way.
I find by weighing daily I don't seem to stress about the small gains...1 or 200 gms here or there throughout the week because I can see the overall picture.
I have 43 points to eat daily on WW. I find I am struggling to eat 29 some days. I have never been able to reach the full 43 but my weight loss is going ok so I am not worried for now.
Yesterday I visited the ladies in the shop next door to work and bought myself pedometer...got great discount too!! I have been having trouble exercising because I am so, so unfit so I figure walking will be the first thing I do. My aim is to increase my movement a little each day - big aim...10,000 steps. Nowhere near that so far today...lol...may take awhile to get there...maybe by Christmas?
Gyms around here seem so expensive also and I just can't afford one at the moment. Curves did have a cheap 6 week special on but I'm not actually sure how I feel about them, have heard some good and bad reviews. Just going to continue researching gyms until I find something I am happy with.
K
I find by weighing daily I don't seem to stress about the small gains...1 or 200 gms here or there throughout the week because I can see the overall picture.
I have 43 points to eat daily on WW. I find I am struggling to eat 29 some days. I have never been able to reach the full 43 but my weight loss is going ok so I am not worried for now.
Yesterday I visited the ladies in the shop next door to work and bought myself pedometer...got great discount too!! I have been having trouble exercising because I am so, so unfit so I figure walking will be the first thing I do. My aim is to increase my movement a little each day - big aim...10,000 steps. Nowhere near that so far today...lol...may take awhile to get there...maybe by Christmas?
Gyms around here seem so expensive also and I just can't afford one at the moment. Curves did have a cheap 6 week special on but I'm not actually sure how I feel about them, have heard some good and bad reviews. Just going to continue researching gyms until I find something I am happy with.
K
Monday, 15 August 2011
First Steps.
On December 25th 2002 I jumped on the scales and they finally went below 100kg...99.8 to be exact.
I remember that moment as I was so excited...I had been trying for this since May that year when I weighed in at 124.5kg. My partner at the time was in the room and I said to him "I have lost 24.7kg". His answer was "Bullshit, doesn't look like it".
That moment marked the beginning of the end of our relationship...even though it took another few years before I was finally free of him.
The last few years have been horrible (it's the only way to describe them). I have had my youngest son (L) in trouble with the law almost constantly, lost a job for reasons which have never been explained to me and had massive financial problems. To top it all off my middle son (D 19 years old) passed away suddenly and unexpectedly in January this year. He just went to sleep one day and never woke up.
I never stood on the scales again after that Christmas Day in 2002 until early July this year and was horrified with the result...144kg. All that weight I had worked so hard to lose back in 2002 was back plus more.
I thought about going this alone again...but after hunting on the web I thought that I would try weight watchers and see how it went. I had joined WW somewhere in the past but had no success...I was losing 100gm a week, constantly hungry and paying alot of money to attend meetings that quite frankly bored me to tears. At 100gm a week it was going to take over 2 months to lose a kilo!!
WW online seems to be the go for me and I am loving the pro point system. Maybe my whole journey will not involve WW but I think it's a good starting point and so far I have lost 6.5kg in 4 weeks.
My aim at the moment is to be at 124kg by Christmas Day this year...that will be 20kg lost and just a little lower than I was when I started my weightloss all those years ago. By Christmas Day 2012 I will be under 100kg...I am determined.
I remember that moment as I was so excited...I had been trying for this since May that year when I weighed in at 124.5kg. My partner at the time was in the room and I said to him "I have lost 24.7kg". His answer was "Bullshit, doesn't look like it".
That moment marked the beginning of the end of our relationship...even though it took another few years before I was finally free of him.
The last few years have been horrible (it's the only way to describe them). I have had my youngest son (L) in trouble with the law almost constantly, lost a job for reasons which have never been explained to me and had massive financial problems. To top it all off my middle son (D 19 years old) passed away suddenly and unexpectedly in January this year. He just went to sleep one day and never woke up.
I never stood on the scales again after that Christmas Day in 2002 until early July this year and was horrified with the result...144kg. All that weight I had worked so hard to lose back in 2002 was back plus more.
I thought about going this alone again...but after hunting on the web I thought that I would try weight watchers and see how it went. I had joined WW somewhere in the past but had no success...I was losing 100gm a week, constantly hungry and paying alot of money to attend meetings that quite frankly bored me to tears. At 100gm a week it was going to take over 2 months to lose a kilo!!
WW online seems to be the go for me and I am loving the pro point system. Maybe my whole journey will not involve WW but I think it's a good starting point and so far I have lost 6.5kg in 4 weeks.
My aim at the moment is to be at 124kg by Christmas Day this year...that will be 20kg lost and just a little lower than I was when I started my weightloss all those years ago. By Christmas Day 2012 I will be under 100kg...I am determined.
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